As the scenery goes down..

Theres a lump in my heart
weneva i see your picture, the lump gets worse.
I noe that what i did wasnt great, and everytime i keep on blaming myself, i cry my heart out.
i wonder if it will recover,
those tears run down my face slowly
telling me that every part i did was guilty
.. so many things had hapened..
i tried cutting the string
it did, but theres only one strand hanging on left..
i dont noe why ..
it posses me .
i want to be free, i want to not feel this aching agains.
i dont know what to do ..
im a little girl thats was lost in the woods.
I was used to be an extrovert but now and introvert..
everything how i express myself .. is all misery.
Outside those covers are a fake smile,
deep inside the coovers lived despair..
All i can do is sit and wait, see where it will lead me ..
-sighhs-