whats the point ? LOL

whatever.
i dont care.

jst smile and live my own life ;)

As the scenery goes down..

Theres a lump in my heart
weneva i see your picture, the lump gets worse.
I noe that what i did wasnt great, and everytime i keep on blaming myself, i cry my heart out.
i wonder if it will recover,
those tears run down my face slowly
telling me that every part i did was guilty
.. so many things had hapened..
i tried cutting the string
it did, but theres only one strand hanging on left..
i dont noe why ..
it posses me .
i want to be free, i want to not feel this aching agains.
i dont know what to do ..
im a little girl thats was lost in the woods.
I was used to be an extrovert but now and introvert..
everything how i express myself .. is all misery.
Outside those covers are a fake smile,
deep inside the coovers lived despair..
All i can do is sit and wait, see where it will lead me ..
-sighhs-

whats worth thinking..

what happens when everything goes down
the colours turn to grey
and the smiles turn to frowns.
the laughter and happiniess i had longed for had past its line
-sighhs-
i blame myself for everything
what could i do ?
i was being an idiot
i lost a great trust.. i didnt mean it to happen ..
i guess he is rite, there is always something thats gonna stop me..
-sighhs-
this is the time when everything is down ,
ive done a bad thing and had regreted .
i made my promise but broken it
i blame my self hardcorely for all of these =/
i blame myself soo hard that im crying.
i blame myself for everything ive done, i regret it all..